Devastation

My friends I received some devastating news today. B's 16 year old birthmother (probably 17-18 now) returned sometime over the last two months and reclaimed him. I received an urgent email from J with the news and to call her asap. My journey to him is over. I dont know what I am going to do next. The latest news has been so encouraging the PM is onboard with completing adoptions that are already in progress, we were all so hopeful. And now, I dont know what is going to happen. I think I am still in shock and am in no position, emotionally, to make any decisions about what do do next. J had some suggestions and to be honest, I dont know if I will continue down this road or not. Is my child, the child truly meant for me, still in that little country? Perhaps. Was it my job to love B with all my heart, for just this little while? I dont know. The tears are coming again.

Everyone Pray

Tonight (well, tomorrow in Kyrg) the PM is meeting with Parliment and we are told he will be discussing IA. So all day today and all night tonight we are praying and lighting candles, working on mojo, getting our chakras in order, and ensuring our karma is good, all in the hopes that we will fill up his heart with the children's plight and get the ball rolling again. My candles are lit, please light one at your house for B and all the other babies waiting for their forever families to bring them home.

A little Nugget more

Someone on the group heard from their agency that the PM will be discussing IA on Oct 2. Yay. Jeez I hope this means something good. I have to get my fingerprints redone soon and my I171H is ok for a while but I am going to go ahead and get it extended so there isnt any question of validity. J doesnt know yet what else I will have to get renewed. Its been so long since I started the paper trail I really have no idea what I need to get done. We are still being a bit quiet about some of the information we just want to make sure that there is nothing that could potentially seem inappropriate.

Thank you everyone for your continued support. I will share more as I learn it.

Whats the hold up!

So there are some things going on that I am not at liberty to talk about yet. We have been asked not to mention it but its good. I can talk about some Senators stepping up and writing a letter asking for an audience with a very important official. There was some success with that.

Its so hard to be optimistic with all that has gone on the past year. We have had ups and downs and always hoping that what things are said will come true. I really still dont know what is going to happen in the next few weeks but I am hopeful that things will be back on track and moving soon.

Nothing on the domestic front either. I am really at a crossroads here with what my end goal is. I have a lot of soul searching and contemplation on what I really want to do. I know I want to be a Mom. That much is a given. I love a little boy in a foreign country with all my heart. Will that be enough? I dont know.

We will see what tomorrow brings.

Article about the Kyrgz 65

We still have no word on movement for those of us waiting to complet our children's adoption from Kyrgyz. The Prime Minister is scheduled to visit the US on Sept 23-25. We have started a letter writing campaign to our Senators requesting their intervention and asking them to try to get a moment with the Prime Minister on our behalf. The article posted last week on Eurasianet includes interviews with a few of the waiting families. The stories are heartbreaking and echo the feelings and situations of all of us. Please feel free to copy the link and email it to your officials in the hopes that the chatter on capitol hill will get to the Prime minister and he will use his power for the good of the children.
http://www.eurasianet.org/departments/insightb/articles/eav091009.shtml

Nothing new on the domestic front either. J responded to an email I sent her requesting the status (domestic is new for my agency) and she indicated nothing yet.

Thank you all for your support. I am sorry I dont keep this up as well as I would like. I will try to do better.

Hugs

Nyet

Nothing is going on on the adoption front and to be honest, nothing going on on the life front. It seems like the stall in Kyrgz has stalled everything. My birthday came and went with no hoopla (thats good) and I havent had a vacation all year (thats bad). Ive been waiting to use all of my vacation for B's arrival since there isnt a maternity leave for adoption. Since we dont know when anything will move I have to do something. I hadnt realized how time moves on but I have just been doing the same thing. Checking the boards. Watching the email. Praying and hoping. Waiting Waiting for something, anything to happen. Now that I have come to that realization its time to do something about it. I have my vacation time requested and dont know where yet but I am going to DO something.

Update from J

I got an email today from J (ABC Adoptions) that my profile is ready and they are getting ready to do some marketing and uploading of PAP profiles to the website. Mine happens to be one of them. I dont know if you are aware or not, but my international agency (Internation Child Foundation http://childfound.org/) is beginning a domestic US program aka (ABC). woo hoo! I am saving some of the cost by sticking with them. I dont anticpate a 'quick' match but that's ok, since it gives me more time to get the funds together.

Still no news from the Kyrgz front. They had the election and we sort of knew who the 'winner' would be. Parliment takes the summer off so nothing will be presented to them til at least September. There is talk that some, for lack of a better term, 'ammendments' were drafted in hopes of changing the law in Feb that halted everything. From my understanding they are only written for the 65 waiting families but in reality, if we dont make it to the top of the Parliment's list for Sept we are probably looking at a long winter of waiting.

Thank you, my friends, for all your ongoing support. I agree with all of you when you tell me 'Why dont they see how this is affecting the children, and let you go get them.' Believe me. I completely agree. B is now 13 months old. I think about him every day. I hope he is doing well.