I am meant to continue

In my last post I mentioned that I had some documents up for expiration and that I would potentially be giving up my journey to adopt from Kyrgyzstan. Well L called me and emailed me my appointment for FBI fingerprints and said 'go today'. I said sure and since the FBI prints dont use that icky ink it didnt take long. So apparently someone is telling me to stay the course. I am hoping that there is some resolution in February regarding whats going on. I am at peace with whatever plan I am to follow. The things that are happening in that little country are beyond my control.
What is in my control is to persue domestic situations that I believe will grow my family. I will keep you posted but am keeping some of the details private. I now believe that I underestimated the opportunities in the US because of my niavety. There are birth mothers that do not exclude a single woman as a potential forever family for their child. Times they are a-changin'.

The latest

Nothing new on the Adoption front. I was intending on renewing my international documentation but have passed the deadline. In November I got my homestudy renewed and talked to the UCICS and they said to wait til the beginning of January. Then they changed everything and I missed the deadline. I am still waiting to hear from them as to whether or not I can still get the free extension or not. If I can, then I am supposed to continue the wait for Kyrgyztan if not, I will be done. I am sad that this chapter may be closing but am happy that I have the opportunity to persue domestic adoption. I am also starting school this week. Yay!

Okey Dokey

So after the 'Morph' I need some help. If you haven't noticed yet there is a new addition to the sidebar to the right. At the top is a link to my 'About Me' blog. This blog is where birthfamilies can 'get to know me' a little better. I also have a link to my agency's website there. There is an entry titled 'Friends comment on me' (or something like that). Anyway, a couple of friends have left comments about me for birthfamilies viewing the blog to see. If you are so inclined and would like to say a few words click the link and add your comment. I will review and add them. I have also signed up with a referral agency to increase my visability. My agency only has a small network so I figure, it cant hurt right? I am beginning 2010 very hopeful that this new step will be a positive one.

The morphing of the blog

It's a new year and full of new possibilities in the adoption world. A year ago I started this blog to document the journey as I worked to build my family. Now that the door to adopting a child from Kyrg has all but been slammed in my face, I am excited to persue situations domestically. I will keep you posted. I am starting over.

2010

I havent posted in a while..there has been alot of sadness to deal with. Friends have lost loved ones, a new life was cut short, and two more were lost before having a chance. Personally, I think I have been sad for a few months now, so much loss and disappointment.. but am looking towards 2010 with a renewed hope. Witnessing the strength that has been shown to me by these families experiencing such devastating loss and the FAITH that things will get better has renewed my own faith that everything happens according to a plan. A plan that I do not make and that I never did. Wishing everyone out there a wonderful start to a new year.

Not much to tell..

Nothing much going on yet. There is talk of a meeting with parliment this week, to decide on laws concerning IA. Probabaly good for the future of adoption. However, I have not heard of ANY mention of the 65 waiting families. Of course the hope is that we will be exempt from the new laws and somehow, these adoptions will be allowed to complete. Even though B is back with his birthmother, I am determined to help the children. Follow this link to Ebay for some Kyrgz items for sale as part of a fundraising effort by John Wright for the children. There are a couple of really cute nativity sets and some bookmarks, and ornaments. There's also a 'pie in the face' challenge going on, visit Joh's Act of Kindness blog. Five Dollars can do SO much for them.

As for me? J is sure I will receive another referral when things get moving. And that I am still considered one of the 65. I still believe my child (or children) is/are waiting for me in that little country. I am still sad but can now look at the pictures I have of that beautiful little boy and remember. Often the memories make me smile.

Getting there... B :)

Life goes on

Life goes on.. I am still not sure what the future holds for me, whether my child is still in Kyrgz or not. There is still no news to what will happen since I have lost B and have no referral to complete. My agency is still trying to figure out how it will play out. There is no way to tell right now what is going to happen with the waiting families, or if I will still be considered part of the group. I am still hopeful that I will be given the opportunity to accept another referal (or two) and complete with my original group.

I am happy to have been given the chance to love a little boy and help with his care until his birthmother could take care of him. I am sad that he will not be with me..and hope only the best for him and his birthmother.